Radiant

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I often feel like a wide-eyed little girl overwhelmed by all that God has placed in her feeble little hands.

Family situations bring up anxiety and frustration.

The role of a wife is honorable and exciting, but it's also incredibly intimidating.

Recent losses still bring with them deep pangs of grief.

Ministry is a joy, but there is also a cost.

Counseling entails tenderly caring for hurting and sick hearts. That is a monumental task.

I am small.

I am weak.

I am prone to wander.

I am lacking in experience, knowledge, and strength.

I am not enough.

I am not making some pathetic attempt at self-deprecation.

I see myself as I am. However, it does no good to stop there.

I open His Word.

I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. Psalm 34:4-5, ESV

The power of this familiar passage cuts through my entire being, enlightening the depths of my soul.

He is the Great I am.

He hears me and answers.

He delivers me from me.

He is my strength.

He is more than enough.

What is left for this little wide-eyed girl but to be amazed, mystified, and grateful to the Father who sees her, hears her, and makes her radiant?

I will bless the Lord at all times;

his praise shall continually be in my mouth.

My soul makes its boast in the LORD;

let the humble hear and be glad

Oh, magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together!

Psalm 34:1-3, ESV